My thoughts seem to get to me lately. There making all the decisions for me and kinda leaving my heart out of the equation. Im not sure why but i cant seem to make anything work. I remember when i was so happy…but now my life has changed and moved foward and i suppose im in a time where everything is just going to shit. So i guess ill just keep going cause i honestly dont have any other options, but should it be this much work just to get out of bed in the morning. Cause all i can think is how long the day will be, with people and drama and all the other bullshit. I used to have the ability to cheer people up and help out a little. These days i feel i shouldnt cause i cant even use the advice im giving them.. I really wish i could go back about 10 months and just stay suspended in time there.